Monday, October 01, 2007

Rabbit, Rabbit

It's 6:33 a.m. on Monday, October 1. My friend Jill used to say "Rabbit, Rabbit" on the first day of a new month. Do people still do that?

My eyes shot open at 5:55 a.m. and I was out of bed by 6. So weird, this new morning person energy. I mean, I've been one way for 43 years, having my parents/roommates drag my butt out of bed from elementary school through college and even work! I did have a couple years of my 4am radio job and I was almost never late. Maybe this is temporary. I'm not sure if I want it to be...?

I started my day with a racing mind which I tried to give to my higher power, but eventually I just decided to get up and start doing other stuff so my mind wouldn't have some much leash. Hence this posting. I might as well let my mind race in writing for this blog/draft of my book. Lucky, lucky you. :-)

I bought another Volvo yesterday...well, I ARRANGED to buy another Volvo yesterday. I am afraid to post a picture or discuss it as a done deal since I have not handed the guy a check or driven the car away yet. I am turning it over. If it is meant to be, it will be. If it's not, I will probably swear and carry on and eventually find the right car or pimp out the Buick.

I am starting to worry that my MS and my focus on all things MS (in other words, my complete and total self-absorbed obsession with my body, mind, emotions, and spirit) could be making my friendships one-sided. I try to listen and ask about others but, depending on the person and the time and what's going on with me, sometimes I'm more successful than others.

I want to get new glasses, but I don't know what to do about the prescription. Mine are wicked scratched but do I go with my current prescription? I have a "new" prescription around the house somewhere from before the optic neuritis/MS started affecting my vision. Do I get my eyes tested again knowing that my vision is a result of MS lesions on my optic nerve and could be temporary? Too bad you couldn't change lenses daily. Wouldn't that be cool? I'd get up, take a shower and look into a machine that would read my brain, optic nerve, and vision, and then push a button to select thecolor-coordianted frames for the day. Then, zoom, beep, beep, click, like one of Jane Jetson's beauty machines, out would pop my glasses for the day. Maybe I should invent it. Hmmm. There are 400,000 people in the US with MS. I wonder how many have optic neuritis? How many wear glasses, I wonder....?

I need to clean my house before the maid comes. My lovely friend Christina gave me a gift of Merry Maids to come clean my house every other week while I am in this exacerbation/episode of MS. (This fact embarrasses me greatly because I am sure people--including you--will think I am lazy and milking the MS). The first visit was wonderful and horrific. Two women showed up and I immediately felt uncomfortable. They were way too much like me--single moms living on the South Shore. I had planned to stay home and do work but I couldn't handle it. I chattered endlessly and inappropriately ("My friend did this for me because I was diagnosed with an illness but don't worry, it's not catchy!" "Are other people's houses this messy on top of the refrigerator?" etc., etc., etc.) I was really fatigued that day (didn't help that I stayed up ALL NIGHT cleaning so I wasn't functioning at full steam and kept going into a room, forgetting why I was there, etc. Eventually, I left, carrying my homemade ice coffee in my leftover DD cup, out to the car. I got to the car and spilled THE ENTIRE LARGE ice coffee with extra Lactaid skim milk with 2 Splenda down my beige pant leg and into my black leather, slip-on shoe. I got in my car anyway, because how could I possibly go back in while these two women were cleaning my house, and called a couple friends who listening and laughed with me. Eventually, I went to DD, got a new iced coffee, got napkins to dry my feet and pants, and went to Walmart and bought new pants--two pair of different being pants because I didn't have time to try them on. I was gong to meet my new neurologist that day I think. Or maybe it was the 2nd MRI...?

So, this is Merry Maid visit #2 and I will DEFINITELY not be here. I am writing this post and NOT cleaning my house like a mad woman (although I should PROBABLY load the dirty, smelly dishes overflowing from the sink into the dishwasher) so I guess that's progress!

Gotta go get ready for work. Have a nice day. Peace.


  1. You are so like me! I would have frantically cleaned my house before the maid service came too. Troy has suggested it however - I just can't do it. I would have a nutter!

    Fingers are crossed for the potential KGB car...

  2. Don't leave us hanging.......did you get the Volvo??? DW

  3. Julie, Are you kidding, one sided friendships?! You need us now, we want to be there for you and there's so little we can do, so listening when you need it? ...CAKE! Any time! And, when there is news on my side I need to share or when you need to try escaping the world of MS, I'll do my best to entertain you with the latest drama... like are we attending our 25th high school reunion? Just got the invitation yesterday. Could be interesting with the recent changes in some of those relationships.

    Have a sparkling day Sparky!! -Laura